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Inspired by personal experience
Textured by professional knowledge
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~~ Gray Matters ~~
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Heidi Lerner
Gray Matters 4U

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The Unpaved Road

The Unpaved Road

It’s been quite some time,
I’ve been traveling on this route,
No one ever told me,
What it was all about.

I’m affected on the inside,
Morning, noon and night.
My friends and family,
Say it will be all right.

But what do they know?
They’ve never been down this road.
All they see
Are the symptoms I’ve showed.

Oh Lord,
Help me.
No one ever told me
How complex all of these difficulties would be.

There are no signs pointing the way,
How can people
Say it’ll be Ok?

What about my sense of disorientation,
The disappearance of my dreams?
How come no one ever told me about these things?

There are potholes along the road,
My abilities have seemed to corrode,
No one ever paved this road for me,
I trip over obstacles I can’t even see.

Yet I don’t want the doctor to paint the picture,
What my outcome will be,
He may be having a bad day,
And I believe much more in me!

Trauma to the brain,
Neurological traffic,
…Blocks do let up
Along the unpaved road.

Symptoms abounding –
Sense of self

I trust in my instincts,
Get a little help along the way.
Untying knots,
Braiding myself back together,

Healing is in flow.
I’m traveling down that road.

Heidi Lerner
Gray Matters 4U

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I must analyze
The definition of this word,

For the underlying meaning
Is somewhat absurd.

Do you mean UN-abled?

No, not me,
To that I say “Hey!”

I’ll get through that obstacle,
My own little way,

Please understand,
I don’t think that I’m so great,
I’ve just learned to compensate.

Are you diss-ing me,
Just because I have trouble
With my memory?

We’re moving on in time,
For sure,

“Handicapped” isn’t politically correct

People with a disability
Are not handicapped,

We’re not passive,
Our potential is there to be tapped.
Our challenges
We want you to understand,

But in your mind,
Don’t put us in the “handicap” brand.

We’re in a different time,
It’s a different paradigm.

We look at ourselves
In quite a different light.

We believe we can do
Whatever we put in sight!

If you assume my inability 
Through this name…

My rights and integrity I can legally claim.

Overcoming challenges,
Makes a person strong –

Strength in mind,
Togetherness in heart,
Help us to keep on keeping on!

Heidi Lerner

Gray Matters 4U

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Trauma’s Unceasing Harvest

Trauma’s Unceasing Harvest

Have you heard anything
Regarding injury to the brain?
For in your heart,
You’d think it’s such a shame.

Lets take Jimmy here,
He’s a friend of mine,
Walking to school one day,
Everything was just fine,

Ready to cross the street,
Two cars hit with a crash,
One car rebounded,
And laid Jimmy in the grass.

Sent him right into dreamland,
Twenty days in a coma, or more –
And now he’s battling with himself,
Just to do every day chores.

He sees a therapist regularly,
The way he handles,
I don’t know how,
But let’s ask Jimmy
How he’s doing now.

“It was hard for me at first,
Everything seemed so strange,
Yet my teacher tells me,
That nothing’s changed!

The girl that I used to like,
We’d meet out on the track,
When our classes were free,
Now she won’t even look at me!
To tell you the truth,
I don’t know
If I want to be here in school,
They all look at me
Like I’m such a fool.”

Well thank you Jimmy,
For speaking your mind,
Just know that out there,
Are people that care,
Them, I’m sure that you will find.

Being dragged through the wringer,
Jimmy starts his wrinkled life anew,
And as much as you may have heard,
Do you really know what Jimmy’s going through?


Heidi Lerner

Gray Matters 4U


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